Everything is on hold until I finish my assignment which is due on.... 27, yeah, 5 days to go, I'm so screwed. But hey, it's okay. I'm sure it will be.
Also, went to the hospital last week, seemed like my blood pressure is fucked so now I am taking maintenance medicine. But my lab results turned out fine so the doctor is saying that this damn thing is work related. Stress. Why am I not surprised? So yes. I started having this headache a few weeks back when my boss started taunting me again. Three days before my blood pressure almost killed me, he tried touching my boobs. So this is my life.
Work contract will finish on February. And I go home for a vacation on December. I told myself I'll just stick with this until then so I won't have any more trouble than what I already have. It's going to be hell looking for another job when I come back and not renew my contract here but it's that or kill myself over this stupid no nonsense work.
I wish I could just go and fly to another country. Not the Philippines because it sucks there. Especially since I can no longer look for a job because of my age. Or marry someone who will let me write to my heart's content and will feed me. LOLS
well, I guess that's about it for now. Gonna go back to hiding while waiting for the Japonism leaks to come.
CrossoversOnce in this borrowed forever ( 1 - 2 - 3 )(Written for the Arashi Exchange 2015 for steffilinos)Pairing:
Kisarazu Cat's EyesSummary:
“Seriously, you’re a moron,” he grits out, curling his palm into hard fists, and digging his fingernails against his own skin in lieu of swinging his arm and hitting Bussan till his knuckles bleed because he can’t. Because despite the fact that Bussan is alive now
, and not dead like they thought he was when they left him behind the hospital morgue earlier, he’s still
dying.Melts in Your Mouth ( 1 - 2 - 3 )Pairing:
Ohmiya / Sakumoto / Arashi-Hey Say Jump Rating:
Hey Say JumpSummary:
The suggestion might have been shockingly unexpected but the idea itself, if he is going to be completely honest about it, isn’t.Non ArashiBetPairing:
Park Yoochun / Kim Junsu Rating:
Tohoshinki (JYJ)Lights OutPairing:
Park Yoochun / Kim Junsu Rating:
Park Yoochun / Kim Junsu Rating:
Tohoshinki (JYJ)Missing YouPairing:
Park Yoochun / Kim Junsu Rating:
Tohoshinki (JYJ)I Am My Own ManPairing:
Samuel / Angus Rating:
Arcadia Series (2nd Series: Ruling The Pit)
Note : Once, long ago, when I first watched Arashi's Aozora PV Making, I wanted to write something. I'm not sure why I didn't though. Maybe because of Ohmiya. I still wouldn't probably write it today.
Drabble : Bestfriend knows best
Pairing : Sakumiya bffery/ Ohmiya
"A penny for your thoughts?" Sho asks, as Sho's arms worm around him from behind. Nino chuckles half-heartedly, unsure of what to say.
"Make it a dollar and maybe I'll think about it," he says, curling his fingers around Sho's hands, feeling them shake. "or maybe I won't at all," he adds, quietly; he can't help but keep his gaze off of Ohno who is still crouched on the ground, still playing around with Aiba and the girls.
"You're staring at him," Sho tells him matter-of-factly, nodding at their bandmates' general direction and Nino will laugh it off if it's not for the fact that he also feels like crying.
"At Jun-kun?" he asks, jerking in suprise when Aiba lights another firecracker, he and Ohno jumping backwards at the same time, squealing. Like bunch of kids, to be honest. "Sure. I'm jealous at his hair. Are you sure I can't ask our stylist for that same hairstyle too?"
"I know what you're saying, Sho-chan," he says, softly, under his breath, squeezing Sho's hands and meaning it to be reassuring. It might not look like it but he hopes Sho will be kind enough to let it go, especially when the simple fact that he's here and Ohno is there, close but not close enough for him to make out Ohno's features in the semi-darkness is killing him. "please don't."
"Did something happen?" Sho asks.
"Nothing that should worry you, Mother," he teases, though his voice sounds scratchy, breathy, even in his own ears. "so please cut it out."
"You were fine earlier," Sho says, squeezing him hard; Nino wants to weep, to tell Sho exactly what is wrong but he's not sure how to say them, where to begin. "when we were filming together. So what happened?"
"Sho-chan, please -"
"And Satoshi-kun was acting weirdly too," Sho says, "is there something you want to tell me?"
He shakes his head, but the words are spilling out of his mouth before he can even stop them. "He said he's in love with me," he whispers, chest heaving hard. The familiar tug is there, the happiness and the equal dreadness of finally hearing the words he never thought he'd ever hear is there too but knowing that he did the unthinkable by walking away the second after is what's gnawing at him at every turn.
Sho's arms tighten visibly around him. "Oh, Nino."
"He said he loves me," he continues, voice shaking uncontrollably. "that he's in love with me, something I've wanted to hear from him for years but - but you know what I did, Sho-chan? I walked away. I walked off without saying anything, without acknowledging him, and his feelings," he says, feels Sho tugging him in till his back is pressed firmly against Sho's front. "I'm so fucking stupid."
"You're not," Sho says, pressing a kiss against the top of his head. Sometimes, Nino wonders why he can't love Sho the way he loves Ohno, then figures there must be an even bigger reason than the fact that despite the closeness, despite Sho's arms branded around him protectively, he doesn't feel as though he's drowning. Only Ohno can do that to him, because Ohno simply needs to look at him for his heart to start racing, the way Sho's closeness never would. "you're just scared and that's - that's just understandable. I mean, of course you have every reason to be afraid, to be shocked, but it shouldn't ruin your chance to be happy. Satoshi-kun loves you, and that in it's simplicity should be reason enough for you to trust that somehow, you both can do this, together."
For a moment there, he can't speak, though it doesn't escape him when Ohno is suddenly glancing at their direction and leaving the spot he is sitting at next to Aiba. HIs heart starts racing again. "You make it sound so simple," he says, eyes following Ohno's movements.
Sho chuckles and before he realizes it, Sho has let him go. It's not surprising that he is still coherent enough to pay attention, especially when Ohno is walking fast, closer and closer, and stops when they are just a few feet apart.
Ohno's eyes are so soft and his smile is so beautiful it hurts. He is also reaching his hands out, trusting Nino to take them. Nino doesn't dare move until he feels himself get pushed forward Ohno has to hold him steady lest he'll stumble.
"Maybe because I know that it is," is the last thing he hears from Sho before Ohno's hands take his, warm and firm.
"Nino, do you want to light one more?" Ohno asks, his tone light and kind. Nino wants to kiss him. "I saved one for you."
He smiles, knows that maybe, probably, he can do that later. In private. For now, he has Ohno's hands in his, and Ohno's smile to get him through the night.
"I'd feel bad if you didn't," is what he says before he lets Ohno pull him.
Title : [Drabble] Find your way back( It"s half past two and Nino can"t sleep. He tiptoes out of the living room as quietly as he could manage it, badly needing a smoke. He slides the glass door leading outside, inhaling gratefully. Despite the lateness of the hour, Tokyo is still brimming with lights, the city looking alive as ever. He steps out, whipping his cigarette out and stops.Collapse )
Author : Jadey
Rating : PG
Pairing : Ohmiya
Summary : But sometimes, just sometimes, when Ohno is close to him like this and he can just make out the shadow of uncertainty, the mark of regret marring the corners of Ohno's mouth, Nino can't help but wish for things to be different.
Note : OMG guys, I'm back :DDD I'm finally done with my NinoEx assignment, yay!
Oh my god you guys, this post is a few days late but I'm still doing this because you people are amazing <3 During the recently held Arashi Fic Awards, four of my fics, FOUR! IMAGINE THAT, made it to the shortlist and three of them won, oh god, I'm so happy. I was in the middle of packing stuffs (since we've just recently moved to another place) and jhing_tearjerky
was kind enough to send me updates.
The first I saw was this.
MARKS took the BEST OHMIYA AWARD, OH MY FUCKING GOD, THAT'S INSANE!!!! I mean, what? I was like, okay, I'm done. I don't care about the others, my fic won the Best Ohmiya fic award, omg, omg, omg. You guys won't even believe how many OMGs I uttered during the day, but yeah, it was a lot. I was so happy about Marks winning because, come on, look at those amazing fics it was competing against, right? And god, the percentage of the voting. My brother was like, Oh, that's why you're grinning like a creep. And I was. :DDDD i don't care, Marks won. Best Ohmiya fic. That was crazy.
So I told the Empress I was gonna leave to transfer a few of my things to the new place but before I left, she sent me this.
JESUS FUCKING CHRIST. /screams
Okay, so it took me like half an hour before I stopped shaking XD but yeah. Waaa, what is this?! THis is crazy! I mean, last year Book of Tears won this category too, then now it's IN TIME XDDDDD God, I don't even know how I managed to keep it together but yes, I have to.
I was two minutes away from leaving when she sent me this.
HOLY CRAP, ANOTHER ONE FOR IN TIME. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. I swear to the lord I was in tears when I saw this, laughing and crying at the same time you guys have no idea how this made me happy.
And then like maybe four hours later, I came back. My phone beeped..
The Empress had 2 more for me.
This was the first.
HOLY SMOKES. PLAYGROUND. MY PERSONAL FAVORITE. /cries happy tears
Whatever I did to deserve these I have no idea but you guys must know I was insanely happy that day. One of the most memorable day of my life.
And then, the last one. THe last one, you guys. I swear the Empress made seeing it a hell of a lot worse :DDDDD with her side comments and all.
W-What? jade_lil?? Best author? You're kidding! But waaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh, it's true. Oh god, it seriously felt like I won in the Ms. Universe, hahahaha. But to beat those other wonderful authors? Me? Wow. I just. It's crazy, I'm telling you.
So yeah. I want to thank you wonderful and patient people who voted, and even those who didn't but read my fics just the same. I hope you enjoy them :D And to my regular readers, I know I haven't been around these past few months but life is just really tough these days. But I'll make it through, and I will come back with more for you guys, I promise.
For now, please know that these awards made me feel even more glad to be in this fandom. YOU GUYS ARE THE ABSOLUTE BEST AND I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH.
Another big hug and thank you to arafanficaward
for her hard work. She's so amazing, really.
Hugs you all.
Note : Snippets in my head that don't make sense.
"Tell me something," Nino says. It took Ohno a long moment to realize what he's being asked because he's too busy staring at Nino's fingers shuffling the cards.
"I love you," he says the first thing that came to mind.
Nino doesn't even lift his eyes from the cards, but Ohno saw it anyway. The way the corners of Nino's lilt into a would-be smile as he shuffles the card, the pink tainting his cheeks. He doesn't anything but Ohno doesn't need him to. He just reaches over and slides a tender thumb across Nino's cheek and repeats the words just high enough for Nino to hear.
Ohno knows he should pay attention - the interviewer looks like she's already considering throwing the questionnaire at his face but he can't be bothered to pretend she's got his undivided attention when Nino is pressed warmly to his side. "Answer her," Nino says and Ohno finds himself shifting to his side so he can look at Nino, finds himself hooking his chin against Nino's shoulder and mumbling, "You,"
Nino giggles at this and promptly tells him to quit goofing around even when his arm he worms around Ohno's back and keeps it there.
Another epic episode of Arashi ni Shiyagare, too many epic moments, esp for ze otp XDD
So, without further ado, onto the caps!( BECAUSE ARASHI <3Collapse )
oh, and by the way, Happy birthday, dear Kino lover_youshould
! I hope you have a blast today :D
I'm sorry I've been having such a huge block this past few weeks, I'm sorry.
Note : based on Arashi's Aozora Pedal PV Making and kind of inspired by Sekamuzu Episode 4
He watches the way Nino carefully brushes Jun's bangs away from his forehead while he is straddling Jun's hips, laughing like no one is looking; it shouldn't bother him, watching Nino so intimately parks himself across Jun's body as if he doesn't care who's around to see it, but it does.
It does and he hates it.
He doesn't wait to find out what happens next. He's off to excuse himself the first chance he gets.
"He was supposed to act like it didn't bother him, when he rejected her," Nino tells him when they find themselves waiting their turn. Aiba is off to charm one of the girls while Jun takes the opportunity to check his face in the mirror. Sho is doing a fairly good impersonation of a crappy actor and obviously minutes away from pissing the director off. They've been at that particular scene for ages and until now, Sho can't still get it right.
"Ah," he says, not bothering sparing Nino a glance. "of course. You were the one who suggested this story, afterall," he says.
"What's wrong, Oh-chan?" Nino asks, his voice thin and he sounded a little weird. It makes things in his chest tight knowing that despite his lame attempt to keep this stupid feelings all to himself, he can't, because Nino can still see right through him.
He bites the inside of his cheeks and wishes he doesn't complicate things by saying things he doesn't mean to say even though he really does. Especially when those feelings are what's keeping him up some nights, thinking about them.
"Nothing," he lies, keeping his gaze locked on Sho's back. It doesn't escape him that Sho's shoulders look stiff even from where he is. "Just tired, I guess,"
"You've been avoiding me," Nino returns, blunt as ever. "Don't lie. You're not good at it,"
He won't even if he wants to anyway, he wants to tell Nino but keeps himself from saying it. "Was it something I did?" Nino says, pressing closer till their shoulders are touching that he finds himself wanting to recoil at that simple touch. It's not surprise as much as the electrifying sensation that comes with the briefest contact, his heart racing before he can stop it.
He turns then, raising his head in time to find Nino's eyes are on him, and just that, just that simple glance throws his heartbeat into chaos. He wonders then, while looking at the worry creasing Nino's forehead, at the concern behind Nino's eyes, how it's so easy to let himself believe it'll work out somehow, even though it probably won't.
He loves Nino so much, afterall, but loving him hurts in all the possible ways too.
No; it's because I love you so much it hurts.
He doesn't say anything, can't say anything, until he feels the press of Nino's fingertips across his cheek, the skin beneath his eyes before he hears Nino's voice, and realizes he voices his thoughts out loud afterall.
"Oh-chan, I'm so sorry,"
It's cheesy. You've been warned.
The light of the lamp on his side of the bed dimmed at the same time he turned the page of his script and looked up.
It was Sho.
“You do know I’m reading here, right?” he sniffed, frowning; Sho simply shrugged and crossed the short distance between them before Sho leaned down to kiss the top of his head, one hand grabbing the script book out of his hand and the other going around the back of his neck to steady him.
“It’s three in the fucking morning, Jun,” Sho breathed, pulling himself upright and carefully putting the script book next Jun’s phone sitting on the nightstand before pulling Jun’s eyeglasses off of him. “Do that tomorrow, or later today, for fuck’s sake,”
Jun rubbed his tired eyes, only vaguely aware that he was being moved until he did so, finding himself lying on his back, Sho next to him as Sho carefully tugged him into Sho’s arms. He hummed, comfortably throwing his arm over Sho’s waist as Sho pulled the covers up on them.
“I have filming the day after tomorrow,” he mumbled into the soft, worn-out fabric of Sho’s shirt, too damn sleepy to feel properly annoyed that Sho had successfully stopped him from memorizing his lines, again. “If I mess up in the filming, I’m totally blaming you,”
Sho tugged him closer, felt Sho’s lips – soft and warm and familiar – against the side of his temple and whispered, “I’d gladly take all the blame, I promise. For now, rest, okay?”
He wasn’t sure if he even answered. He was out like a light the moment after.
: [Drabble] Like a fairytale, but notAuthor
: Matsumiya (bff-ery), Ohmiya, Sakumoto, Gen Arashi friendshipRating
: They don't even make it to the backstage before Jun is sauntering to the guests wearing his fiercest scowl to date. Nino wonders if he should be worried because it sure looks like Jun is about to either claw the guest's eyes out or bash his head against the nearest wall but it's difficult when he is also trying his hardest to keep Ohno from doing the same.Disclaimer
: fiction, desu!Note
: because Kat is feeling down, drabble for her! Based on that latest VS Arashi
+( He can"t help it, he laughs, happy and giddy as he folds his arms around Ohno, kisssing the tips of Ohno"s nose. "It"s part of the game, you old twit," he says, "please don"t tell me you didn"t know we were supposed to do it like that?"Collapse )
So apparently, Sakuraiba shippers are upset about Sho's otonaha entry. Which was about Jun. And Jun's drama, 99.9. And the recent earthquake. Why? Because the entry screams of Sakumoto love. Why they are upset? Because Sho wasn't gushing about his eternal love for Aiba-shi.
I thought this fandom is filled with mature people. But apparently, I'm wrong.
But anyway, if you shippers think that hating on Sho will change one damn thing about his entry, you're kidding yourself. We shippers are all delusional, I get that, I totally, completely understand that because I do feel the same way with Ohmiya but to feel upset about a member's blog entry about another member? I think that's just pathetic. And to be honest, stupid.
Sorry not sorry.
I'm not saying this because I AM a Sakumoto shipper. Because I do think that shipping pairings aside, Arashi members care about each other, love each other, take care of each other the way they know how. And we all know that Sho is Arashi's resident mother. He cares. Not just for Jun or for Aiba. He cares about everyone, about Leader and Nino and even probably Jun's bonsai at home. Or Aiba's stray pets, Nino's back pain, Leader's eating habits. It's his nature. He cares. Don't freaking hate on him just because he didn't mention Aiba in his entry. Maybe he will tomorrow. Maybe he won't. Who cares.
I don't even know why I'm writing this. I'm so fucking annoyed.
I wonder how people are able to sleep properly at night when during the day, they do horrindous things to other people like they're nothing.
We are human beings too. And just because you own the company and you are paying us gives you the right to treat us like dirt.
I'm not sure where you are or if you are still checking your LJ but please know that I miss you terribly. I've sent you countless pms but you never reply and I don't really know what to think. I just hope that you're well, and wherever you are, I'm always thinking of you.
I love you and miss you terribly, dear jamiestewart88
Happy birthday <3
Note : Based on the prompt : Fall in love with someone who tastes like adventure but looks like the calm, beautiful morning after a terrible storm.
“That’s my win, you damn, terrible cheater!” Jun wails, pinning him to the couch and refusing to let go despite his whining, grabbing the controller he still has in his hands and putting it away.
“Only in your dreams, Matsumoto!” he wails in return, laughing when Jun all but drops all his weight on him to keep him in place. “Oh my god, are you going to suffocate me to death just because I beat you sixteen times in a row – mphhh!”
“Shut up,” Jun mumbles into his mouth once he’s pulled away just far enough to talk and Nino finds himself arching up to follow the lost heat, fingers scrambling to grab any part of Jun he can touch so he can pull him back down to him again.
It’s rare for Jun to initiate something like this, afterall, but when he does, Nino always gets to enjoy him. The way Jun arches back to his every touch, the way Jun reciprocates his kisses as if he is starving for them himself. It’s those moments when Nino is able to differentiate his bandmates – not for how Nino knows them but exactly how Nino categorizes them for their kisses.
Jun’s always tastes like victory, like it’s something he’s worked hard to achieve no matter the situation is.
“Shut up, shut up, shut up,” Jun tells him, face flushed with embarrassment and something else Nino wants to taste beneath his tongue instead, finds himself arching into the warm solidity of Jun’s body atop him.
“You know how to,” he mumbles his answer, worming his arms around the back of Jun’s neck to draw him in, mouth already parted for Jun.
"Is this the part where you said goodbye and I tell you it's fine and thank you for being with me however short that is?" he asks, wanting it to sound like he's mocking him but it honestly just came out wobbly, shaky.
Ohno steps forward then, hand cupping his cheek before he has time to react, before he is able to back away. To be honest, he doesn't have any intention to, not when Ohno's eyes are as tender as Ohno's fingers brushing soft touches across his cheek, as gentle as Ohno's gaze trained on his face.
"No," Ohno says, whispers, and leans in slowly, slowly, slowly. "this is the part where I say I'm so in love with you and that if it's okay for me to stay with you forever,"
He gapes, stunned, eyes wide as Ohno presses their lips together. "and now this is the part where you either say yes or fuck off - Nino?"
He is grabbing Ohno by his forearms and mashing their mouths together for a hard and demanding kiss.
He doesn't say anything. The kisses he plans on giving Ohno then are answer enough.
I swear to the lord it was worth it, waiting for the single to come out, that is. I really had a hard time restraining myself once the previews were out because I knew it'll be wonderful. And I'm not disappointed. Though I haven't listened much to the tracks included in the RE, I completely fell in love with the second track of LE which is Affection. I love love love it.
And of course, the performance. I swear to god, it's not fair that these guys can still make me drool just by watching them. The song, the dance routine, the sultry moves, the faces they make. I'm in awe, again.
Of course, caps to prove my point. :D( caps under the cutCollapse )
Title : [Drabble Series] Cradle Snatcher – 22Author : JadeyRating : PG to RPairing : Ohmiya / SakumotoSummary : He should have known, the minute their gazes meet, that that guy, Nino, was born to rock his world.Disclaimer : fiction, yo!Note : Might not be able to post next week or so. I don't know, I will try my best. For now, here's a little teaser. + ( Nino was at least better at making small talks during the whole taxi ride to Nino’s place, and it was obviously done so to distract him from quickly reaching over and ravishing Nino right then and there.Collapse )
Oh my god, jhing_tearjerky
, this is all your fault <3
He saw him from a distance, just a glance, a very quick one before the man disappears from sight.
He stops, heart pumping hard through his chest, blood pounding through his veins and feels as if he's never been alive, until now.
He turns and gives the man standing next to him a somewhat watery smile.
"I found him, Jun-kun," he whispers, heart full to bursting as his eyes follows the back of the moving bus. "Kazu. I - I found him,"
Title : [Drabble Series] Cradle Snatcher – 21Author : JadeyRating : PG to RPairing : Ohmiya / SakumotoSummary : He should have known, the minute their gazes meet, that that guy, Nino, was born to rock his world.Disclaimer : fiction, yo!Note : double post, yaay! Yama is back and they’re off to chase Matsumiya XD +( He’s not even sure he had properly said his goodbyes to Sho-kun before he is off to hunt Nino, whom he saw immediately out there, standing in the middle of the crowd gathering in front of the arrival gates.Collapse )
Title : [Drabble Series] Cradle Snatcher – 20Author : JadeyRating : PG to RPairing : Ohmiya / SakumotoSummary : He should have known, the minute their gazes meet, that that guy, Nino, was born to rock his world.Disclaimer : fiction, yo!Note : ah, sorry for the long wait! It’s Sakumoto’s turn now XD +++ ( “God, you’re driving me fucking crazy,” Sho-san mutters from the other line, tone dripping with want and Jun just wants him here, close where he can touch him, feel the warmth of his body pressed to his.Collapse )
Note : AU. Ohno is a dentist XD
"Ninomiya Kazunari-san?" the nurse calls. He stands up and discards the fishing magazine he is flipping through a while back to pass the time.
"That's me," he says, raising a hand.
The assistant smiles and beckons him over. "It's your turn, Sir," she says, dimpling. "but first, let me inform you that Sakurai-san took an emergency leave of absence so he won't be the one to attend -"
"That's fine," he cuts in, tries his hardest to give her a smile though it's difficult enough to do that when it sure feels like his head is being split in half. Damn toothache is the worst pain there is! "Anyone is okay so long as he can stop this pain from killing me immediately," he says around a grimace.
The assistant gives him a sympathetic smile at the same time a guy with a sleepy sort of smile and the most gorgeous mouth pops his head out from the door and blinks at them.
"Is he the one?" the dentist asks. The nurse nods in answer. "Oh, okay. You can come in now,"
He does so, dazed for a moment until the assistant points him towards the chair. He's still a little bit dazed when the dentist walks over to where he is, his attention on the sheet he is reading.
"So, Ninomiya-san, trouble with the same tooth again?" the dentist asks. Nino nods, dumbly, vaguely aware of the fact that he is being shifted, the assistant tying something around his neck because his focus is solely on the dentist's face now half-hidden by his mask.
"It's alright," the dentist says, fingers cupping his jaw and making him twitch at the contact. "Open your mouth please," the dentist says.
Nino does, closing his eyes and imagining the dentist putting something in his mouth that he's not supposed to, and quietly curses himself the moment he realizes what he's doing.
"Chinen-kun, will you please get me a cup of coffee from the shop downstairs, I'll be fine here," the dentist says. The assistant simply hums a yes and leaves.
The minute the door closes, he feels the dentist's breath on his face, warm and alarmingly close, causing him to open his eyes and finds the dentist's face too close for comfort.
The dentist smirks and points down, the tips of his finger touching his hard on through his pants.
"You want me to take care of your teeth first or -" he pauses to slide a finger past Nino's parted mouth. "that thing between your legs? It's so hard and it looks mighty painful,"
Nino groans a yes before he can even stop himself.
Note : Heartbreaker 3 tomorrow XD
Ohno stayed beside him, quiet, unmoving, saying nothing even when both of them know why they're here. The sky is already dark when Ohno does move, closer but not close enough, bumping their shoulders together lightly and murmurs, "I just came to say goodbye,"
He doesn't say anything even when Ohno takes his hand and squeezes it, turns a little to his right and drops a tiny, tiny kiss into his shoulder before he stands up to leave. He still doesn't say anything even when Ohno starts to walk away, even when the tears start to fall from his eyes.
He can't, because he knows that no matter what he says now, it won't ever be enough to make Ohno stay.
The second Arashi Fanfiction Awards is up again this year. You can nominate your favorite fics written from January 2015 to January 2016 for the following categories;
1) Best Pairing
2) Best Genre
3) Overall Best
4) Favorite (Exchange, Authors)
And there's that HALL OF FAME category now where we can vote for those wonderful, wonderful fics written eons ago. LOL. I voted a few :D
You can check out the details HERE
Have fun nominating!